Thanks for explaining that, misshate. It does make sense when you put it like that. It's just something I'm really struggling to understand, but your explaination makes sense to me. It explains these sites as well. Helping each other fight that emptiness must feel like a really noble, worthwhile thing to do to these girls.
I do hope you're better now. I wish you all the best in any case.
Well, like any other disorder, anorexia is something you won't truly understand unless you're knee-deep in that crap. You may know the common causes, circumstances that make it more likely that Girl X is going to start starving herself, but you will never really
get it. So it's normal people find it hard to understand, really.
(And thanks - yeah, after I finished college and started living a life that felt more like my own, I got better. Also, eh, in the past two years I've met some... forty? fifty? people dying of cancer - my gran was ill and I visited the oncology ward pretty regularly. This probably helped, too, awful as that may sound. Helped put things in perspective. Death's really kinda... you know. Fucking scary. And ugly. I'd rather live.
If not for myself then for others.)
"If I don't step on any cracks in the sidewalk, I can eat a spoonful of cottage cheese tomorrow," or, "If I ride my bike five miles in X amount of time, I can have a popsicle or a hoodsie cup. But, if I go for the hoodsie cup, I have to throw it up later." It was just...bizare.
Oh jesus, tell me about it.
I know that now, more people suffer from anorexia, that it isn't just a young upper middle to upper class white girl disese
I think it may just have to do a lot with certain expectations you feel are put on you. Hence why anorexia affects mostly girls from wealthy/educated families, girls who feel like there's a certain standard they have to live up to. And this I think changed as the expectations grew along with technological development. Argh, hard for me to say what I mean here in English... Anyway - the world changed, simply, and it's harder to be a 'useful' member of the society nowadays than say 15 years ago, unless you have 3 degrees, speak 7 languages and etc... Well, that's how I feel it is in Europe, anyway. People are becoming redundant.
Yes, a lot of the girls saw themselves as fat, there was a self image disorder too. But, a lot of teenage girls, even back then, thought they were fat, even if they were wearing size 1 jeans.
I wonder about this. I'm sure many anorexics have BDD in the first place, but I think some also develop it as they go further down the spiral. That's how i think it was in my case. At some point I stopped perceiving my body as it really looked, and I mean almost hallucinating, not just convincing myself I'm fat.
It just sucks that the world is so screwed up
I'm tempted to throw in some Gandhi quote here, but that's so... hippie
Welp, that thread's become doom and gloom indeed. Apologies, feel free to go back on topic
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